The Mr. The Moron

The worst thing a person can do to himself is that hating him the most for what he had done earlier. I mean regretting for his past mistakes and taking the pain in the present. There is no future. You see, life isn't easy at all. You need to fight for a better life just like every others do. I have seen people working day in and day out for a good life. And they have been blessed with everything they wanted. They got their work's worth. 

There is this guy named Javed. Never in my life I had met someone like him. He is capable of making crap out of everything. He talks shit, lives in shit. No wonder, people will never wanted him to be around. It's not that he is the same every time. He is actually good as a person. Some incidents in life had just turned him into being stubborn and a moron.

The more you dig into Javed's life the more surprises coming your way. You wouldn't get a good impression on him when you get to meet him once. You can't really judge a book by it's cover can be applied in this situation. Similarly, You can never judge a person's abilities by his looks. 

Javed worked as a financial broker in the past. He lived in the life of Dollars, Pounds and Euros. He is Intelligent, Talented and smart. He had traveled nearly close to 18 countries all his life and there are still 13 on his To-Visit-List. Just with the fact that he loves traveling. He goes on such holidays every six months. No matter what. 

It was Ben Richardson who is Business Head of the company where Javed worked. Earlier Javed and Richardson were involved in a project deal. They both drove the company into profits. Despite few mistakes from Javed side made Richardson the Business head in less time. And now there is a GAP between them. Yet, they are still the same when it comes to work. They work together and Javed has always been good to his Business Head. 

Mr. Javed. I would like to see you in the conference hall in about ten minutes. We need to talk. Said Richardson walking towards his cabin. 

Richardson is a hard man at work. It is never fun to work with him. Having been the Business Head of the Company he never wanted to give up. He needs everything to be just perfect. Richardson got married to Lady Berg 4 years ago and visits house often. Just the fact that he lives away from home all the time. He spends half his time in Air bus travelling all over. Money man. We can say. 

Hola! Mr. Richard. How have you been?. I wish you would receive the docket in 4 days time. I have been constantly looking at the process for the last 12 hours. Said Javed making his way into the conference hall. 

Yup! I am doing good. Great Actually. And Yeah I am hoping for the docket to arrive soon. Let us wait. Between there is a UK trip coming this season. It's a big deal. I wanted you to be the Team lead. Prepare yourself and make sure you have got the best resources by your side. I wanted this to be Grand. The turnover is huge. Got it?. Mr. Richardson finishes and lifts a glass of water after having spoken for 5 good minutes. 

Yep! I got that. I am in. Will look into this on my way back home. I have got to go now. Will see you in the cabin. Adios! 

That one trip to UK has got something to do with Javed's life. What happened in UK?. Does Richard have his share in this trip?. Does this trip mean to destroy Javed as a person?. Sources say Javed committed to suicide at UK. Why was that?. Is that all true?. 

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The Mr. The Moron is now a latest thing in my blog. A serial you could say. I will be making it as chapters. You can always read the posts related to "The Mr. The Moron" with just one click. Will provide you the link in the next chapter. Feel absolutely free to comment your views. I would like to hear from you. 

Thank you. 

What Involves in writing a book. Blog Marathon (Post-10)

The day has come. It's been 10 good days for blogging. I still can't believe the fact that I have successfully completed my 10 day Blog Marathon. This feeling is so new to me.

It all happened in the month of March when I first thought of giving it a try at writing a book. I have also made a blog post regarding my book titled "The Sambar City". After writing 4000 odd words I realized I lost my way. I wasn't convinced with what I have managed to write. So Sambar City took a back seat. 

Here is the link: http://jayanthmajety.blogspot.in/2013/03/and-thats-how-it-all-happened.html

Had I taken that seriously I would have completed Sambar City by now or else I would have been in the half way mark. But you see, It's human tendency. There is a lot involved in writing a book. 

Note: Apologies for stopping the post mid-way. This post will be updated tomorrow.  

Random Clicks. Blog Marathon (Post-9)

With two days to Go for the end of Blog marathon I had already fallen sick of making at least of one post a day for the last 8 days. I will be so very pleased with the kinda effort I have put in making blog posts consistently for the last one week. I am happy with the way how things are really turning out when it comes to blogging. 

There isn't great happening around me for the last 15-20 days. I kept myself away from everything I could. I just wanted to make some peace for myself. So the only way I can make up my time is by reading Books. There you go I have done reading with Come On Inner Peace. I don't Have All Day! by Sachin Garg. You can also find the review post in my Blog. Do read it and comment your views at the space provided. 

Here are a few Random clicks from my Nokia Lumia 520. 

The above pic was clicked in the backyard of my home in Guntur, Andhra Pradesh. In summer you can find loads of mangoes hanging on to the branches. During winters its gives you a complete greenery look. Bliss. 

Here is the full view. 

We have a wide variety of tress planted in our backyard.

Me with my brother at Chutney's, Hyderabad. Clicked during my recent visit. I personally liked this pic much better than any other in the recent times. I had a rough kinda look in this one where every other pics have a clean decent look. 

I always had that thing of doing my best when it comes to cooking. "King of Fries making" is what I have been told by my family. I do make fries better than anyone does in my family. At least I feel so. 

In Making! 

This is how it looks after making.

Crispier than ever. Trust me.

Conversation with Dad. Blog Marathon (Post-8)

Things aren't going the way dad expected it to be. Instead, it showed a drastic fall over the few months. The situation at home now changed from bad to worse. I can visibly see everything falling apart but I'm not in a position to take control over it. I made a dejected face. 

Moving out of the city where I did all my schoolings with below par scores and spending more of my time with friends and sports made my childhood one big time to cherish. My school days were actually good but when it comes to academics I always had a bad remark of being a slow runner in getting over the line. I never considered education as a serious thing to look at. So I always had good time with outdoor games. 

Dad always dreamed of seeing his kids in a good position and he made sure he took every necessary step to  make that turn into reality. But fate is having something to do with his dreams. And so we. Lack of seriousness, arrogance, sluggish character of mine dragged me into a position where it has to be a win-win situation.

What are you up to Jay?. Dad asked in an uneasy tone. I can clearly sense that my idleness is unsettling his mind for long time. He wanted me to do something with my life. He wanted me to at least give it a try. He wants me to work hard keeping one thing in mind. He was worried about me more than I am.

I don't know dad. I feel like I have messed up my life so much. I need sometime to get over my recent debacle. I responded plainly not giving him the actual reason of what was bothering me so much.

You are struggling. I can understand. But for how long?. There must be some end to it. Isn't it?. Came the reply from him. He expressed his feelings now in a better way. He is having something to say. I let him say.

I just say you one thing. Listen to me carefully. Know what you want from your life. Go with that. My support will be with you all the time. Work hard. Give your best. Whatever may be the result. I will be happy with your attempt. And you will feel better for at least giving it a try than letting the opportunity go. I'm sure you will have no regrets for this in future.

I just thought for a while. All through his lecture about life there are many that crossed my mind. I have thought about the girl I so badly loved and I thought about Sachin Garg, Durjoy Datta. How in the world they managed to start their own venture in such good time. I wish I could be the one among them. I always had that in mind of doing some BIG things. I wanted myself to be different from what others do. In short I love to experiment things in life.

Dad, I just can't live life just the way others do. I strongly believe that I am here for something good. I have a purpose to fulfill. I have my dreams to achieve. I am not that mediocre kind of guy who work his skins out to earn some 20 to 30K staring at monitors all the day working with those deadly codings which makes no sense.

Okay. Fine. But when is that?. When are you going to start?. At least make me realize that you are passionate about something and you are striving hard for it. I will support you in the process. Dad says with a glimpse of hope in his eyes.

Ahh! It takes some time dad. Nothing happens overnight. I need to get back to normal for now. With that I bite my tounge for uttering something which I wasn't supposed to say in front of dad. I changed the topic in quick time.

I was actually going through a difficult phase which I can never blurt it out. I was totally shattered into pieces that day. Those memories kept daunting me for long time now. I tried so hard to get them out of my head. Every attempt was a failure. I tried different things. But nothing really worked. I decided to take the pain.

Leaving those thoughts and back in reality. Dad was waiting for me to respond. He wanted me to be positive and expecting me to give him an assurance that I will be alright and start thinking about life and career.

At that very point of time. All I thought was about dad and mom. They needed me to deliver the most. They took every possible risk to provide me a better education than anyone could. I felt an intense urge of making them happy. I want them to be happy. And I want myself to be reason behind their happiness.

Yeah Dad. Some things really went wrong for me. I'm not really bothered about the past. I will make a plan for now. Will try execute it in a right way. But, keep one thing in mind. If I fail today. I will come better tomorrow. I am not giving up this time.

It is always a great feeling to have such conversations with dad. We used to keep chatting about different issues. I used to admit my version of thoughts and he does the same. It's like a kinda knowledge transfer. At least a nugget of knowledge has been shared in the process. We are happy with that.

And here I am making this post with loads of hope and confidence, charging me up and making myself ready for a better tomorrow. My real hunt for life starts tomorrow.

I declare!.

Come On, Inner Peace. I Don't Have All Day! Blog Marathon (Post-7)

Samar Garg lost his peace, after his beloved passed away. 

Navya Sharma abandoned her peace, in the hands of drugs. 

Vandana doesn't want to let go off her peace, but destiny has other plans for her. 

We are all looking for peace of mind, So are they. 

An adventure which began at the Ashram, in Rishikesh, becomes one of the most soul crunching journeys ever! 

Will they find out what they are looking for?. Will they find inner peace?. 

Will in the process of reading this book, you find out a thing or two about yourself?.

This is what you will find at the back of this book. So called to be as a description in short. The moment I read the description I went on ordering the copy for me via Flipkart and the minute I had the copy in my hands I'm all dying to read the one. Just hoping whether this could get me some peace to myself. 

I was almost on a verge of losing my hope and everything in my life so far seemed incomplete when someone so important and close to me intentionally moved away from me, leaving me in an absolute darkness. I felt a void in my life that very moment. I hated myself the moment I let her go. My case was absolutely different in comparison with others. I loved her with all my heart. But you see, destiny has something more to do with my peace. I still believe that she did the right thing leaving me behind but I don't think it's the right way or the right time to act so. The moment I needed her the most she is not with me anymore. I am shattered. I am dejected. I am lost. 

It took me 15 hard days to realize what I was up to. I looked completely lost and with an unshaved beard I looked scary enough. I was doing so much to myself adding a bit of publicity to it on Facebook for which I had to regret later on. I thought there must be an end to this dark side. I wanted myself to be back in normal.

The cover photo of Sachin Garg's latest very much appealed to me. I went on reading that finding some inner peace to myself. In the process of reading the book I could clearly relate myself with Samar at some phases. I may not really know how it feels like taking up the death of his/her's loved one. But I know, it surely kills inside. It was one such phase one has to come out quickly. I wish there is CTRL + ALT + DEL button available for such situations in life. 

There will be some episodes in the Ashram at Rishikesh where Samar goes to find his inner peace. He meets Vandana, Guruji and wonders how can these two help him find his peace. But later he finds himself involved in a mission where there is no look back. Hunt for Navya begins. With Vandana by his side he believes he can get Navya back in his life. Required amount of twists and turns will be coming your way while reading and I wanted to make sure I don't reveal any of the thing in this review post. 

The end is the same as I expected it to be. Vandana was in peace, Navya was in peace. But something is still bothering Samar Garg. Guruji is having is hard time to make him realize what he was actually through. By the time readers come to dead end of reading this book they will surely realize what Samar actually did during his time at Ashram and what he did during the adventure of getting Navya out from Meth and making her get back in normal. The balancing act by Samar took me by surprise. Finally, he will be able to connect the dots which means he has finally found his inner peace. 

If you ask me for the best lines from the book, Here they are. 

You know what is the worst thing in the word?.

You are amidst this crowd, a swarm of people, 

who think they connect with you,

Every one of them, in their own way. 

But in reality, you are being ripped apart,

Connecting with each one of them. 

It is a constant struggle to connect with someone, 

To be heard, to be understood, to be loved, to be accepted.

And it is done with a glimpse of hope,

That someone from these known and unknown faces,

Will hear you out, someone with a warm and Genuine smile,

Will touch your heart. 

And that's precisely when, perhaps, you would say,

'Yes, this is me.'

If you really wanted to read this one, you better read "Never Let me Go" which is a prequel to this one. And then go with "Come on Inner Peace" which is by the same author. Sachin Garg. I must say Sachin Garg has produced a master piece. 

If you want to grab a copy here is the link -> http://www.amazon.in/Come-Inner-Peace-Dont-Have/dp/9381841306/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1374326255&sr=8-1&keywords=come+on+inner+peace+i+don%27t+have+all+day+paperback

It is here available for just Rs.52/-  (A fries at Mc Donald's or a book with everything in it?. It's up to you to decide) 

Rating: 4.8/5 

Tracks on Repeat Mode. Blog Marathon (Post-6)

I did try so hard to come up with some useful post tonight but unfortunately I couldn't get one topic to write on. So I just wanted to make this post very simple. Usually songs do refresh ones mind when they are completely exhausted. I spend hours in a day listening to some lovely tracks. Here are few tracks that I'm in love with and are on repeat mode for sometime now.

1. Aashiqui 2 

2. Avril Lavigne

3. Demi Lovato

4. Akon

5. Selena Gomez

6. Justin Bieber

Here are a few You tube links. 

Song: Wish You were Here. 

Song Title: Here's To Never Growing. 

Song Title: Come and Get it. 

Song Title: Give your heart a break. 

Put-O-Put. Blog Marathon (Post-5)

Chaya Aunty was busy making her morning breakfast while Chinni was half-a-sleep and pretending as if she was ill so that she can happily take a leave from school. Meanwhile ramu uncle got himself completely involved reading his daily newspaper and started shouting at chaya aunty to get him his morning coffee. 

Rita aunty lives next door to chaya aunty's. Rita aunty's family hailed from karnataka 3 years back and rita aunty had absolutely no command over the local language. They are a family of 3. Ramesh uncle works for some bank in Chennai and her only son neeraj was now in his 8th standard. 

As a part of their daily acts both Rita and Chaya Aunty had to work earnestly from early morning 5 to 8. Make sure they prepare breakfast and lunch for their kids and hubbies. Once they are done with their daily rituals they were left all alone in home until the clock hits 4 and 7 respectively.

Put-O-Put deals with the humorous conversation that takes place between a local and a non-local aunty. 

Chaya aunty and Rita aunty keeps bantering about each and every happenings of their day be it what chinni did when she got up from bed and Rita aunty says about what her son neeraj did while he was in school. Nothing productive comes out from these chats but I proudly say if you have a good sense of humor you will laugh out loud by listening to their conversations. 

Here we go with one of such conversations: 

Chaya: Good morning ma. 

Rita: Good morning ya. 

Chaya: You did breakfast ma?! What you make it?! I make dosa today. 

Rita: I make idly. Neeraj eats idly today. Ramesh go office early today. 

Chaya: Okie ma. What you make for Lunch?! I make Sambar. 

Rita: Sambar boring ya. I making coriander pickle. Ramesh like it and took it in lunch. 

Coriander pickle?! Yes. Rita aunty had hit a jackpot here. Chaya aunty was wondering what Coriander was all about. She was now in a fury to hit back at Rita aunty. 

Chaya: Oh!! How you do ma?! Ramu like it. He eat some where. You make it how?! 

Rita: You put coriander leaves in a jar. Put some water into it. Make paste it. Put some oil in a pan. Fry the paste. Put some masala to it. Put some all needed seeds in that. Put salt. That's it ya.

In the process Chaya aunty listens keenly to what Rita aunty says as if some top chef from Taj Fisherman's Cove is in full flow revealing all the secrets of their Quality making.

Chaya: Oh!! Okie. Very simple ma. I make it with some other leaves. And you make with coriander leaves. Chinni no like this so I will not make it. Your neeraj will eat uh?!

Rita: Yes. It is healthy ma. So we ate that every week.

With that Chaya aunty has lost the battle at the morning encounter. It's better she leaves for now and comes back with full flow the other time around.

Chaya: Okay ma. I wash clothes now. Many are there. Bye.

Rita: Okay ya.

They go back to their respective homes and keep busy fulfilling their homely needs. They both once again recalls what had happened in the morning session chat and who have the slightest advantage. And they make their points clear which points have to be made when the afternoon session resumes.

Being the local lady Chaya aunty wants everything to be under her control and she wins most of the times over poor Rita aunty. When chinni was back home at 4 chaya aunty wants Rita to be out so that they can exchange some words if she was dominated earlier in the day. Fortunately Rita aunty having no other work she keeps herself available at the entrance clearly stating that we can have our second round which can now be witnessed by chinni.

The conversation goes this way.

Chaya Aunty initiates.

Chaya: Chinni's teacher said she got first rank in class. Last time they conduct exam and she is first.

Rita: Oh!! Good ma. What marks she get in the exam?!

Chaya: 90/100. Correction did so tough ma. So only less marks she get.

Rita: Hmmm. Neeraj get 95 in last exam. He always study in school.

Chaya: Chinni also like that. She hears class well ma so she get marks good.

Okay now this was going worse. Rita can no longer boast about his neeraj and lead the conversation to nowhere. So there must be some stop here and let Rita take the initiative this time.

Rita: Ok ya. I have work. I will go now.

Chaya: Oh! Okie. Bye ma.

This is how it all goes when two aunties of different frequency and wavelength catches up. Really. It's fun to be around. Hope you enjoyed reading the post :)

With that I'm done with today's post. See you tomorrow with a new post :)

Wordless Wednesday No.3 Blog Marathon (Post-4)

Give it a TRY!

I do spend sometime alone thinking just about myself everyday.

It's not the past that matters. What matters is just the PRESENT.

You seriously have no idea how fast my heart beats when I see YOU!!

Never ever Give Up!

3 Good Hours in a Day! Blog Marathon (Post-3)

If 180 minutes can make a difference then this day will be one such day. I had been to an interview today in the morning and was up for a movie in the evening with my brother. It was planned such way. I was sure of having a better day compared to the last few days. In the morning when I got up there are just 3 things rolling on my head. Firstly my loved one, Interview and the movie I am all excited to watch. And I must say it didn't disappoint me in any way. 

Firstly If  I have to say about my interview. It all went well until the HR intentionally asked me about the salary expectation. Being a fresher you have very little to deal with when you were asked about something which you cannot easily measure. I looked around for a while and uttered 2.5 Lakh Annually.?. With the biggest confusion on my face not knowing whether if I made a right call or a wrong one. I could see the HR smiling at me and saying how can you expect such huge pay from our company without any experience while I'm drawing just 1.8 Lakh per year. I was taken aback. I thought this is not going to work for me. I carried some conversation with him and left the room once after the interview was done. I had enough fun with the HR. I really liked the way how it all went. And when I am back on road all I was thinking about was the movie I'm going to watch in the evening. The excitement is getting bigger. 

Here we Go!! BHAAG MILKHA BHAAG! The time I entered into the Audi I could see all seats filled up and the people started roaring for Farhan Akhtar. They were actually getting crazy about him. At least I'm crazy to watch the one. Having heard of all the hype this movie has created I thought of to watch it for once. The Background scores got me goosebumps. I am actually enjoying every frame of it. Credits to the director of the movie. 

I wondered how in the world I could understand every dialog in the movie without having much of a knowledge in Hindi. Though I could read and write the language I couldn't speak or understand much of it. I seriously lacked in that area. But thankfully its Tuesday. Every multiplex in the city screens Hindi movies with subtitles on that particular day. I'm Glad! I made it today. Felt lot comfortable with the subtitles. 

My take on the movie.

I personally learned a lot from this movie. Having come across such a painful past Milkha Singh proved that he was a gifted athlete. The amount of hard work, determination and will power made him a true champion. The movie was more of inspiration. I just simply loved watching it on a BIG screen as I don't watch Hindi movies much on a BIG screen. This one was indeed special. 

A Must watch movie for everyone who wanted to do some BIG things in life. You will surely be moved with this one. It just gives you a gentle push towards your goals and dreams. Dreams do come true. Believe me! 

My Rating: 4.6/5 

My Love with English. Blog Marathon (Post-2)

Having kept myself away from Blogging for the last 60 days I have decided to go on a Blog Marathon for the first time, so as to make sure I'm completely back in touch with writing. And here it is, my second post of the blog marathon. The topic I decided to write on was "My Love with English"

I'm no good at English till 2010. If you ask me to frame a sentence with a little of vocab in it. That was enough to embrace me and I would run away from you. I used to feel so insecure back then. Having a bond with my local language I consider English is not my cup of tea. 

It was the time when I was in my first year of Engineering when I moved out of my comfort zone and settled in a place where I had no clue of what others were actually talking about. I had a serious language problem by then. I struggled to make friends with the locals. I started feeling so low and lonely. It was actually a period of uncertainty and there is no escape. 

In short locals in Chennai have a great bonding with their local language Tamil. English is a bad thing for them. They love their language and equally hate other languages. ( Some category of people are like this. I meant!) Much to my disappointment there is no one who is good at the language in the vicinity. 

You see, What I actually did in my 4 years of Graduation is that I tried to be different in a bunch of whole. I'm the one who speaks in English with every Lecturer and Professor in my Dept. It's a good feel when you win over others in some cases. 

After being ruthlessly abused by someone who hardly knows me for some particular reason. I thought of to stop enough of nonsense that I had been into for nearly more than 2 years. I decided to move on. I regret for wasting 2 precious years of mine where I could have done a lot more useful stuff which by now could have made me stand in a right place. 

The move on mantra for me was English. I fell in love with the language. I decided to take up the challenge. Wanted to create an impact. I was badly in need of my own recognition. I wanted people to recognize me as a useful resource. I wanted to master the art of speaking as well as writing the Language English. 

Here are the 5 Best ways to Improve your command over English: 

1. Read Newspaper every day. (Times Of India, THE HINDU, ECONOMIC TIMES). 

2. Watch National News Channels (Times Now, CNN-IBN, Headlines Today) 

Note: Do not watch BBC and NDTV Good Times in the very first attempt. The language they use is so heavy for a beginner to follow. 

Hint: Make a habit of watching Newshour Debate with Arnab Goswami on Times Now and India @ 9 with Rajdeep Sardesai on CNN-IBN. And also News @ 9 with Rahul Kanwal on Headlines Today. 

You know something?. I do follow these 3 debates at a time depending on the topic they debate on. You might find these shows handy. Observe the way they speak. Make a mental note of those words and apply when such situation comes to you. It's simple. 

3. Read more books. Be it Fiction, Non-Fiction. Underline the words and check with the Dictionary or just Google it. Make a note of them as well. 

4. Write as much as you can. Write everyday. What ever you feel. Initially that might sound a bit too tough. But you will get used to it slowly. It will really help you. 

5. Implement the above 4 points for at least a minimum of 6 to 8 months. I'm sure you will do great things in life. You will feel more confident than ever. Trust me. 

If you really wanted to start reading a book. Here are some suggestions I can give for you. 

1. I Too Had a Love Story by Ravinder Singh.

2. The Secret Wish List by Preeti Shenoy. 

3. LOSER by Dipen Ambalia. 

4. Till The Last Breath by Durjoy Datta.

5. Come on Inner Peace. I don't Have All Day!  by Sachin Garg. 

6. If It's not Forever by Nikita Singh and Durjoy Datta. 

7. Two States by Chetan Bhagat. 

8. How I braved Anu Aunty and Co-Founded a Million Dollar Company by Varun Agarwal. 

These are enough for now. Grab your copy and start reading. 

Happy Reading!! :) 

The Pressure Factor.

The continuous physical force exerted on or against an object by something in contact with it. Is what Wikipedia says about the term pressure. Having been under intense pressure for nearly 30 odd days I decided to take on it. I will be providing some instances which I actually came across with my outer introspection over the last few days. And my illustrations are as follows.

 

1. What makes oneself drag into pressure?.

 

2. What can pressure actually do to oneself?.

 

3. Is depression the advanced version of pressure?.

 

4. What depression can do to oneself?.

 

5. Ways to get out of depression?.

 

6. Realization.

 

7. Back to winning ways.

 

Okay, these are the 7 questions I will be focussing on today's post. I will be giving my version of thoughts for the above which can really help you to shape yourself better. Or at least I feel it would help you. If not, kindly ignore. If you have a better version than mine, kindly comment your version of thoughts at the space provided below.

 

What makes oneself drag into pressure?.

 

You see, Pressure is now everywhere. The very first time I heard of pressure factor came under the voice of Indian Cricket greats Navjot Singh Siddhu, Sunil Gavaskar and Ravi Shastry. They have mastered the art of analysing the game. They say Dhoni keeps his head cool under pressure. And the success lies behind that coolness in his head. It's not that he applies Navaratan and all such stuff. It's all in his head. He prepares to go all out. There is a bit of fortune in that. But in the end he is a successful captain.

When you were asked to do more than what you actually can. When you were asked to do something which you cannot really do by heart but you were forced to do so. You feel a bit of pressure to accomplish that one task. It  almost seems to appeal like an uphill task. If you happened to get through then you would consider yourself as a Go-Getter. 

 

What if you failed to accomplish that one task?. You're under pressure. If the intensity of that particular task is high. Then you are surely going to push yourself into that pressure zone which can tear you apart in the later phase.

 

 What can pressure actually do to oneself?.

 

Once you're into pressure it means you are totally out of your comfort zone. You fail to recognize the areas where you were actually good at. You start to feel yourself as under rated. If you are pushed into a situation of do-or-die. The proximity levels of losing is very much on cards. You start to compare yourself with your fellow mates and dig yourself deep when you see others winning everything just like the way it is. Earlier which seems to be a cake walk for you never looks the same now. You find everything changing in less time. You prepare yourself to stay alone. Much in darkness. Negative thoughts start to take control of your mind. Finally you find yourself hopeless.

Is depression the advanced version of pressure?.

 

Yes it is. Severe despondency and dejection, accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy. Is what Wikipedia says about depression. I wanted to make it so very clear to all the readers what I was actually talking about so I thought Wikipedia can give me the accurate definition.

If you have been under pressure for reasonable amount of time and if you find no other way out then  the chances of getting into depression is very much on cards. In this phase you will run out of your senses at times. Decision taking capability will turn to disable mode. You cannot stand on your own foot. It's just because you are very much worried about one thing that's rolling on your head for a long time. You surely need to have an expert by your side. Else, You will run out quickly.

What depression can do to oneself?.

 

You are on the threshold of facing the biggest battle of life. You're lost in thoughts. You never know when you feel asleep and when you keep awake. You are no longer under the control of yourself. You are being operated under the guidance of internal mind set which holds the virus called as depression. You struggle to find an anti virus for cleaning the depression but fails to find one. The more you stay in the depressed zone higher the chances of losing your value time on earth. Needless to say, You will even feel like ending your life just right then. There you see, the term called SUICIDE comes in. People will realize that as one best option to get rid of depression.

Ways to get out of depression?.

 

I will again say. It's all in your head. The quicker you understand what you were actually going through the better you can make yourself move out of it. You need to keep yourself among a group of people. Need to spend much time on what you are interested at. Generate positive vibes. Make a habit of reading books. There are plenty of books within your reach and you can get them at a reasonable pay. If you're bored of Non-Fiction go with Fictions. Relate yourself with the protagonist in the book. Focus your mind on everything you do. And then, write whatever hits your mind. pen it down. The more you write the better you feel. Sooner or later YOU will be back to NORMAL.

 

Realization.

 

Once you realized what you had overcome, you will feel the necessity of sticking with what you had done and not to get back into what makes you feel like a hell. You will slowly start to look at things and generate confidence within yourself. For now, you are experienced. You know what to do and what not to do. So you will prepare yourself much better than you did earlier.

Back to winning ways.

 

Confidence keeps you winning. It provides a way to get you back on track. Winning is not just enough. You need to make a habit of winning consistently. And the way I see, You are a WINNER.

 

Finally I did make a post after a long time. First post on my HP Pavillion G6. Many more to follow.

 

I was actually going through a phase of depression for the last 30 days I can say. So I know the pain, I know it all better than others do. I cried out of my heart many a times in the last few days for my hopelessness. In short I even had tears rolled down my cheeks minutes before I started writing this post. All I'm doing for now is reading as much as I can, writing as much as I wish.

 

This depression of mine will remain as a painful memory forever.